There is no doubt in my mind. God told us to adopt. We listened and answered this calling. Then, and only then, did we get pregnant.
Yes, I feel like God waited for us to follow His calling before He blessed us with another pregnancy. Sorta like when He asked Abraham to sacrifice Isaac and at the last second he provided a replacement. Only different. Clear as mud, right? Trust me, it makes sense in my head.
I don't boast to know the thoughts or ways of God. Far from it. Most days the more I think I learn, the less I understand. But I know this...
His calling for us to adopt did not change just because I got pregnant. No, we're still called.
And let's get hypothetical for a moment, shall we....
If I had been able to get pregnant easily, I probably would have kept having babies one after another. Our "someday we'd like to adopt" attitude would still probably be in the "someday" category. Who knows if we'd ever actually get around to adopting if we could pop out babies easily. Our struggles with fertility brought adoption to the forefront. I believe God used our struggle with fertility to bring us to the point where we were ready to say "YES" to adoption.
Because He lavished His grace on us, He blessed us with a pregnancy after we said "Yes." Now, does that mean everyone should say "yes" to adoption in hopes of getting pregnant...NO! Does that mean everyone who says "yes" to adoption will get pregnant...NO! Remember, His ways are not our ways and I totally don't get it.
We also believe that this pregnancy is all part of God's timing to get us to the exact place on the list to be matched up with the Ethiopian child He has already chosen for us. Who knows...our Ethiopian baby may not even be conceived yet! How's that for some blow your mind thoughts?
We may sound crazy to some to be adopting and pregnant, but I don't care. I'm crazy in love with Jesus and I'll follow him to Africa and back with a baby in tow because he told me to.